Purpose

What is the purpose of hating me when you truly hate yourself, you used me for 10 yrs in reach of your own selfish comfortable wealth. You uttered amongst the worst of words to describe who i am, but the picture you paint is the one of yourself created to invade my life like spam.

What is that you seek to gain from all of this you do? When in actuality your hate for me has reasons less than few. You're hurting your own flesh and blood as everyday goes by, you may not see it now but in 6 years dont wonder why.

Why I've closed my heart and locked it with a key, you cant place blame any longer i have to protect me. It hurts to have to not think about the situation at hand, but my distance from it all is the only way I can continue to stand.

I can no longer lay miserable and take the attacks from you. Just remember in 6 yrs this is what you chose to do.

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In a world filled with compassion and love, it skips me.

Success in encouraged. I reach it, yet I am empty.

Rejected by all due to the fear of the unknown, not given a a chance for reasons to me that haven't been shown.

Cats away, left out, discarded removed.

Again and again I keep telling myself in time it will prove.

But, time has come and gone and facts are what they may, my heart will always be cast on a shelf left in disarray.

I wrote that Poem September 17th, 2012 and in a real twist of things I still feel that way sometimes.