Imaan

                         

                            Well, I don't really mind

                           Where you wanna go

'Cause everybody sometimes
Feels the need to be alone

It's a temporary breakdown
When there's nothing left to say
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

Well, it should come as no surprise
When you're dealing with the truth
It should be a state of mind
Or another point of view

So if your confidence is shaken
I can promise it won't break
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

When nothings making sense
And the questions never end
You gotta let it go, let it go
Every now and then I can't pretend
But in the end I say that I don't know

And do you believe in miracles?
I hear they happen every day
And if you believe then
We can walk on water

Well, I don't really mind
Where you wanna go
'Cause everybody sometimes
Feels the need to be alone

It's temporary breakdown
When there's nothing left to say
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

Where you go, what you find
Will remain or pass us by
Some will climb, some will fall
Some will rise above it all

Promises you make or break
Gone tomorrow, here today
Let it pass, let it wait
Turn around and walk away

When nothings making sense
And the questions never end
You gotta let it go, oh baby
Every now and then I can't pretend
But in the end I say that I don't know

And do you believe in miracles?
I hear they happen every day
And if you believe then
We can walk on water

Well, I don't really mind
Where you wanna go
'Cause everybody sometimes
Feels the need to be alone

It's temporary breakdown
When there's nothing left to say
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

I don't really mind
Where you wanna go
'Cause everybody sometimes
Feels the need to be alone

It's temporary breakdown
When there's nothing left to say
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

I don't really mind
Where you wanna go
'Cause everybody sometimes
Feels the need to be alone

It's temporary breakdown
When there's nothing left to say
Show a little faith now
'Cause everything is gonna be okay

Venting (5:45 am)

My thoughts run rampant, circular, on and on,

Id give anything to eradicate them,be okay, have them gone.

The weight that I carry is one that crushes every bone,

I feel as if I'm going crazy, I need to be left alone.

Do I deserve peace, freedom, thoughts away from fear?

Or wil I continue to suffer and allow these things to forever be near?

It feels good to write this down and get it off of my chest,

Hoping one day soon that I will accept it and finally get some rest.

I cannot change what can't be undone so I have to face the facts,

I will be okay no matter what because I know Allah always has my back.

Anxiety

Anxiety

Anxiety and depression is getting the best of me,

I’m tired of the everyday motions of simply existing.

They try to trap me in a box and I fit into none,

Therefore I push through with a feeling nothing can be done. 

Why are my struggles minimized by society as a whole?

Is it because despite my circumstances I was born into I chose not to fold? 

I chose the path least expected and educated myself with honor,

Yet I’m left unheard and unseen as the darkness continues to lure. 

Resilience is engrained within my bones and deep within my soul,

Because of that sense of self I’m perceived to be a person who is always whole.

But I’m  a broken woman isolated, hurt, and afraid,

Afraid of what will become of me due to the image that is portrayed.

I’m well spoken, clear, intelligent and aware,

But that doesn’t mean that I am not scared.

Scared of my own self and of this debilitating isolation,

Constantly fighting the entity that  caused this emotional condemnation.

Don’t let my strength blur what it is you think you see, 

Because what’s really there is a woman clinging onto hope, praying desperately.