Here we are four years later on July 4th, 2018 and I am still being held to a mistake I made in 2014. I proclaim that I will no longer continue to pay the price that I have already been punished for and have been held hostage to for the last four years. No more crying and no more complaining from this gal. I have reached out and I have even spoken to my sweet girl and I have been pushed away so pettily with such ugliness and faux love. I was hurt, shattered and lay broken on the floor, but here I stand. I stand with pride, I stand with dignity, and I stand with my God, my Jehovah Jirah! There is nothing left for me to do, I have done all I can and I will no longer hold myself accountable for the non-communicative ways they have displayed towards me. I will worship daily, and I will trust in the lord, lay it at his feet and move forward. I have come so far and have done so well. I don't deserve to continue to pay this heavy price a second longer. Today I release myself, my fears and anxieties, and my burdens to the lord and will pray that God touches their hearts in a way that may change things at some point in the future.
If I don't begin to acknowledge the successes and how far I have come when I was left and kicked out with nothing, I will never grow and feed off of that strength and resilience God blessed me with. I am a resourceful and talented individual and I will not allow one mistake define me. I am still a work in progress as we all are but I am a work in progress moving forward.
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