Wednesday, November 28, 2018


The state of hate in which we live in right now is insane! Trump just gets worse by the moment and continues to say the  most idiotic things you can think of. I don't know what to think from day to day. I used to watch the news and keep CNN on the background, but it has become so ridiculous. These days I'd rather listen to Law & Order or Hallmark Christmas movies. The blatant lies, the ugly attacks, the obvious racism.... its just too much. Whenever I hear a supporter of Trumps trying to spin the crap that comes out of his mouth they always concede at least one lie he spewed then in the same breath walk about 67 other lies back. I look at the crowds that he receives, and they are all white ranging from the very young and very old. The people who compile his "base" are the exact people who are getting the shit end of the stick yet they are blinded by the social hate rhetoric he speaks they don't care about what is actually happening to them. You can call me a "Trump Supporter Sympathizer". I truly pray they do not hold that much hate inside, and that this newly found emboldened way they place their hate on display is an awkward teenage phase. I am currently located in a ruby red state. I do not live in the rural areas in which he targets  heavily but I am in a Missouri metro area surrounded by suburbs one in which I live, so I see and have been subjected to this very hate others watch from afar. I don't allow these people to hurt me or my feelings in any way. I just pray for their hearts and minds and move on.  

These images of hate, these acts of domestic terrorism (lets just call lit what it is) and the hateful rhetoric have to stop. I sound a lot like the news anchors on CNN but it needs to be said, even if it falls upon deaf ears. I mean on Thanksgiving the man was thankful for himself. It was so pathetic and sad. He didn't thank the troops, the American people who put him in office, he thanked his damn self. How horribly narcissistic that is to do. I just do not get it. 

Cindy Hyde-Smith defeated the democrat in the Run-off Senate race in Deep Red Mississippi last night which was projected. What I find to be very sad is the fact that she was caught on tape saying she would be in the "Front row of a public hanging" if invited, "joked" about suppressing votes in more urban areas, posted a picture of herself wearing confederate gear with a caption that stated "Mississippi at its best", an went to to an all white private segregated school to avoid desegregation, then in turn years later sent her daughter to the same type of school. That is who that state in America in this year of 2018 sent to represent them in the United States Senate. 

When will we learn that judging one another, being closed minded and harming each other a bad thing? Children know these basics and I am so glad THEY are our future.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

I Don't Drink.... but sometimes I feel like I need a Smoke Break

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Living in the "Heartland" where people are completely heartless has been very hard and has taken a toll on my view of people in general. White privilege is socioeconomically clear here in the the Kansas City, Missouri metro area. It is located right next door to the state line of Kansas which enters a whole new world! I have been rejected and labeled and even denied jobs due to the color of my skin and my appearance. When I am looking for second job I don't even apply for front office administrative positions because I know I am not white nor a blonde or brunette. Although I am well overqualified for all the positions I apply for I am simply denied due to either name discrimination or I am just "not what they are looking for." I find that to be the funniest excuse of them all. Little do these companies know I am a Master Senior Editor and ghostwriter for a major publishing house and oversee 247 people everyday. I have government clearance and am a recent P.h.D graduate. 

When it comes to my own people I am an outcast. The black females out here feel I am not black enough and the males are cool, but just want to use me for whatever they think they can until I inform them I am married.

"If you're shattered, every piece of you that's on the floor he can restore........ he'll take you deeper, he'll give you a song." -Blanca (Christian Artist) 

The fact that I am still standing and thriving upsets some people. Thank you mother for blessing me with the resilience I know in my heart you passed along to me. Thank you for bringing me into this world and God bless you for looking out for me when I stared down the barrels of death and despair. I know you are an angel and have been 34 years. Now, you have your mother back with you and I know you two have mended any heartbreak and just want our family to acknowledge our truths, forgive and let go. I am not going to lie, I  have not let go of the hurt completely that has been bestowed upon me by your daughter and your sister, but God is working on me and I am closer to a true and ever lasting forgiveness. 

With God all things are possible!

Imaan

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