They say things happen in 3’s and that’s when you know karma has come knocking on your door. I am not sure that is something I believe in. My life has never been a stroll down easy street but my walk on this earth is with Faith. I believe the good in people until I am given a reason not to . Even in that I speak prayer over their lives and wish them many blessings. I have been told that I will end up alone by people when they are not satisfied with who I am and what I stand for (and what I will not stand for). Watching anyone walk out my life is hard, but I have learned that god Guides my life and I will never doubt the Lord. Because I don’t have the reaction people want and/or expect they get very upset and say really ugly and mean things. There is only so much a person can take and I know my limits.
Life is not a movie, it doesn’t play out that way. Life is a journey and with the ups and downs we have to take it for what it is. I am not afraid to state that I have no relationship with the family I was born into. I love them and always will as people but the pain and hurt caused has been too great and that’s not something I can allow myself to engage in or entertain in any way. I honestly at this point don’t know who to trust at all. I live a very lonely life and that may make some people happy. They don’t see the actual repercussions they cause the other person. I will never again get too personal with anyone at this point and time in my life. Maybe one day I will be able to open my heart again but right now or anytime soon that will not be the case.
I do for myself, I do not ask anyone for favors or handouts. If I cant get it myself i simply wait until I can. I handle my business, I never miss work, and I pay all my bills on time. I will turn away from any lack of love and move forth with life.
I know better :)
S.C.M.
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